yor holiday 2weeks so damn boring

I wish can meet my friends that I miss so much

Mom want to tack me for holiday I want but I don't feel like going

All the time I'm only thinking bout him

and my friends...

I don't need a holiday and I wish there is no holiday

because it will keep me away from meeting him+friends

Yesterday my mom bought me a new watch

she say its expensive but don't care because

nothing is more expensive than friendship

Holiday sure I will become more fat

Because all I do at home is only eat,sleep,online

Just like a real pig...

At night before I sleep I will think of how to express

My feelings to him...because I'm afraid to face reality

If he likes me too I'm gonna be damn good

But if I'm rejected than I'm gonna be so sad like for months

Why can't life just be perfect and we have everything that we wanted?

Who can answer me?

I'm already 15 but I still act like a kid

I'm different from other girls

I always act like a boy...

Say bad words...

But deep inside I'm still a girl...

To me it's not important to judge whats on the outside

all we need is a pure and loving heart...***