Not going to write about all that happened today...

Today was really a rough day...

I thought he realize my changing but...

He say I'm still the same...but...

Does he know now right inside and the out side of me is a girl already???

Does he know I stop doing those boyish stuff already???

Does he knows that I'm willing to do anythng for him...

Well as I say... He does not even realize it even a little bit

It hurts me Alot and I can't stop thinking about it untill right now...

How long must I wait??? Time is precious and I don't want to waste

If I dont' really have a heart for him maybe I will be running nd yelling

as much as I want to... But I think Of Him...

If other people say the word FUCK to me I wouldn't care

because they doesn't meant anything to me...

I guess nobody even cares about how I feel inside

and nobody even think I also have a heart...

and doen't mean I can't change to be more girlish...

lets just stop this here...

I hope i have good news to write here tommorrow...

Still waiting for him BY the way...